Tuesday, July 28, 2009

A lot of frustation and some tears....

So...the past 2 weeks have been really difficult for me.

3 weeks ago, I hit 6 weeks of working out 4 to 6 days a week and hadn't really seen any changes in my body & no change in my scale for 4 weeks! I had set a goal of losing at least 20 pounds in 13 weeks and I realized that there was just no way I could do that.

I had started to clean up my diet about 4 weeks ago. But even so....there was a lack of change in my body/the scale...I realized that I needed to make some more changes. The idea of serious calorie cutting or food elimination was depressing.

Finally deciding to meet with the dietitian about 2 weeks ago actually put me in an emotional state I wasn't expecting. Sure I was casually playing with the idea a few weeks before that, but now that it was official....I was upset that I let myself get to a point to where I had to meet with a nutrional specialist. I was upset that all the work I had put in wasn't showing. I was upset that I was here again. I can't remember the last time I cried that much in such a short period.

Of course, it doesn't help that every health magazine has something about how it just takes 6 or 8 weeks to get to "your best summer body" or "fitter, happier you".

Anyways....I'm doing better...though i do have my moments....today was chuck full of them. It's 9 weeks of exercising for me. I truly thought I'd be at least 65% of the way there. As of today 20% of the way.

I keep telling myself I am making progress. I will be in a better place in 6 weeks then I was 9 weeks ago. I am moving forward. Both my nutrionist and trainer seem to think that I can hit 140 lbs in 6 weeks...which is encouraging and dounting at the same time. That would put me 80% towards my goal weight.

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